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Painting Plan

It’s finally Sunday! I’ll be visiting my dad for the afternoon. Once I get home my plan is to paint for a few hours.

Canvases are prepared and ready to go.

I’ll post updates on these paintings.

In the meantime I will be knitting a oversized scarf, that I can use as a shawl. The stitch is huddle stitch. This will not be sold.

Hurdle stitch

Cast on even number of stitches

  • Row 1- knit
  • Row 2- knit
  • Row 3- k1, p1
  • Row 4-k1, p1
  • Repeat until size you want.

I’m excited, this week most of the days I will be working from home. I’m considering to transition to work at home permanently. Either I’ll ask the practice I work at for that position or I’ll work for a telehealth company. Time will tell what the decision will be. But I believe I’ll have more painting time and more time to write my book if I work from home.

Enjoy your day

Happy day

Caroline

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Chapter 5: I am enough..

I am reading the creative cure by Jacob Nordby. This chapter has some deeper writings to try.

It focused on the internal story we tell ourselves and to learn how to write your own story.

“the inner creative self takes a back seat, and the enemies of creativity take over.” Page 97.

The impact of the stories “…can lead to feeling uninspired, helpless, or hopeless in certain areas.” Pg 97-98

The exercise is about taking a list of “should and should not,” and explore changing that story.

Here’s mine: I should have studied art in Europe.

My story rewritten:

I stayed home to be with my mom. And discovered I wanted to work as a healer and art therapist like I wanted to when I was looking at colleges. This time gave me the insight and awareness to focus on my career and to become the art therapist I wanted. I now have a good paying job, and own my home and I can always travel Europe. With this experience I can be a creator and healer and can help others be stronger. I learned about my inner strength.

I am enough. I am safe. I love myself. I see myself.

More on chapter 5 later

Today’s art in the studio…

Started a new painting…first layer of colors.

Working on coasters…. selling on Etsy…

This painting is not completed…

Happy Day

Caroline

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Watercolor Doodle Journal

This past week I was unable to find time and energy to read The Creative Cure by Jacob Nordby. I didn’t even attempt it one little bit.

It was an emotional week knowing someone I respected and absolutely adored died from a long battle of cancer. My heart will break forever.

Sleeping was barely there, basically the death of this person brought me back to being 24 years old when my mom died. Her son is in his 20’s and what he has to do made my memories vivid.

After I saw two clients this morning, I went to the craft store. I tossed in many bottles of acrylic paint, canvases and paint brushes. I am set for awhile. I also bought a stand for all my painting supplies.

My studio is now organized, a little better. Not exactly what I want but definitely able to sit at the table without feeling I’m in a tight space.

Watercolor paint was calling me. But I knew I couldn’t do anything with detail. My brain is emotional my heart is emotional and I’m so exhausted my eyes hurt.

Doodle painting! That’s mindless but mindful for what I need.

Here’s the result:

Supplies Needed:

  • Watercolor paint
  • Brushes
  • Water
  • Towels
  • Paper/journal
  • Gel pens

First use the watercolor paints and paint any shape with multiple colors on the paper.

Then take the gel pens and doodle on top of your doodle painting. Use multiple colors of gel pens if you desire. (I used only a black gel pen for my doodle)

Some close-ups

I feel relaxed. Maybe I’ll do another one before I go to bed. I’m going to try to cross stitch for the rest of the day. It’s a Hulu or Netflix night with my legs up on the ottoman.

Even my cats and dogs want to take a nap now.

I’ll be back to blog more about the book I’m reading.

Happy day

Caroline

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One heart is broken

As an art therapist to release emotions, one must paint it out.

This is a painting in response to finding out someone I know has died of cancer this morning.

I will miss her, and wish I could have one more conversation to see her smile and her mischievous ways that made anyone laugh. Plus that sneaky laugh.

So glad I was given the chance to know you, love you and help you. You are now a star in the universe. Onward to your next journey.

Grieving today

Caroline

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Blobs of Paint-an art journal entry

This morning I started a new journal entry, using the same process of blobs of paint on the paper. But an added step to it at the end..

Directions:

  • Acrylic paint
  • White acrylic paint
  • Flat brush
  • Journal
  • Palette
  • Water
  • Paper towels
  • Clean damp rag

Chose 4 colors of acrylic paint. Any color that appeals to you.

Use a flat brush and paint blobs of colors onto the paper. Fill it until the white paper is covered.

After it is dried, chose 2 more colors. And paint on top of the colors on the paper. Let it dry completely.

Put white acrylic paint onto a clean damp rag.

Wipe it onto the blob painting.

The final look, the painting has a soft muted look to it.

Another great way to paint a background for your journal entries.

Happy Day
Caroline

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Chapter 4 Rediscovering Intuition and Honoring Emotions

I have been reading The Creative Cure by Jacob Nordby. It has been an interesting to go through this book and examine what’s lodged inside of me.

This chapter is about trusting your intuition. Page 63 “The problem is that most of us weren’t taught the skill of listening to and following our intuition, as we live in a society that’s imbued with a logic-based cultural bias.”

Page 64 “I can’t imagine returning to a time when I shut down the guidance of that interior voice.” “When we shut down or ignore our intuition, as so many of us have been trained to do, it’s no surprise that the element of joy in our life suffers.”

This is compelling, as I feel my joy has been cemented inside of me, can’t escape from the past traumas I have witnessed, experienced and heard. Life has been too traumatic for me.

He writes further about if you are lost to feel your intuition that reconnecting to it will feel awkward. And to distinguish between intuitive feeling and wishful thinking will become difficult. Old habits, fears and biases may dominate your thinking.

There are exercises in this chapter: Blind contour drawing, dream log, intuitive painting.

I will share about the exercises in the next post about chapter 4….

Happy Day

Caroline

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And then there’s a creative art journal

My flower journey is still going on. While painting flowers this month, I’m also started back to creating art journal pages.

Along with reading “the creative cure” it made sense to me to work in my journal.

This is a great way to start when you are unsure what to paint. It’s also a good way to loosen up if feeling tense and restricted about painting. And it’s a great way to paint a background.

Here’s the directions:

The brush of colors

  • Acrylic paint
  • Flat brush
  • Journal
  • Palette
  • Water
  • Paper towels

Chose 4 colors. Any color that appeals to you.

Use a flat brush and paint blobs of colors onto the paper. Fill it until the white paper is covered.

After it is dried. Choose 2 more colors. And paint on top of the colors on the paper.

That’s the first part….more to come about this painting.

Where’s my flowers? I’m working on some paintings for Etsy…will be showing them on blog soon, and posting on Etsy hopefully at the end of July.

Happy day

Caroline

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Creativity

What is creativity? Chapter 2 of The Creative Cure by Jacob Nordby

He suggests this mantra:

I am creative. I am an artist. I am creating my life.

uhmmm, Am I? That is the struggle. Do I see myself as an artist or see myself as a counselor. I certainly don’t do art daily. But I work as a counselor most of the week.

On page 4 he writes “somewhere along the way, we traded this immersive creativity for logic, predictability, correctness, and responsibility.”

That is very true in my life. Logical thinking must be present in order to establish stability for clients. Predictability, people depend on that to calm their nerves. Correctness-let’s face most of my day, I am correcting their behaviors or decisions. Responsibility, well that is part of the job, a lot of rules and laws to follow. So where is the creativity in my day?

Wait! He writes about the enemies of creativity: there are three types of areas that cause out block for creativity:

Socialization, traumatic experiences, rejection-pg 5

Socialization: There is an influence from society that causes the creative to not feel welcomed. The social norms seem to rob us of our youth and creative spirit. I conformed to a full time job with benefits and all the perks. I couldn’t life that way anymore. I went into private practice. I work better with a flexible schedule. When I started working with a flexible schedule, there were doubters, saying it will be hard to pay my bills. It hasn’t been hard, in fact easier! They said that I wouldn’t like having to work in the evening. wrong I prefer late afternoon and evening times, I feel more energy then. What do social norms know about me anyway?!

Trauma: I have witnessed and listened to trauma experiences for all my life. Trauma I believe has caused my flow of creativity to stall. It has caused intense anxiety, social anxiety and feelings of depression. I work with clients with trauma and have heard things that will never be able to unhear again. I feel a sense of sadness about people’s trauma. I never acknowledged my trauma until this year. I will never forget witnessing my friend being physically abused by her brother at her birthday party. I never wanted to go over anyone’s home. I still feel that way today. I prefer my place and I prefer quietness. I will not watch anything with abuse in it as it causes me to have anxiety and flashbacks.

I have experienced trauma of my mother’s death. It is something I don’t share, as there are parts of her death that will remain hidden and only me will carry them. I accepted her death, but the sadness of watching my father age is traumatic for me.

Rejection. Definitely happens to me all the time. I was rejected my the first boy I had a crush on. I was rejected by men that pretended to like me. I say pretend because it was simply that, they were dishonest with me and the woman they were dating. I was stood up my a man for a date. I was in the middle of getting ready, that I double checked on the time and he finally replied an hour late. And I was rejected for a job that I really wanted: I was more of an art job working with mental health. I was upset.

Here’s a few paintings about my grief and trauma:

More to come

Happy day

Caroline

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Flower #7 A Quick Painting

The past few days I have been under much stress. So working in the studio has been difficult.

When I have stress and anxiety on top of chronic pain, my creative side does not emerge.

So today I went in the studio opened my journal and began painting. I wasn’t after anything perfect or amazing. I was after releasing the stuff that is clogging my creative side.

There it is my quick painting. Let’s hope my creative side returns quickly. Tomorrow I won’t be able to paint, another stressful day.

Happy day

Caroline

Artwork is in Etsy shop

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Flower #6 A Beauty in Bloom

This morning started out sleeping in, and making the rest of the day leisurely.

Spending the morning in the art studio was a nice welcoming after a major night of excitement, laughter and decision making.

I began this challenge of drawing or painting flowers for the next month. The first painting I began, still needed to be completed. That is what my focus was today.

I began outlining with acrylic markers. If you have not tried acrylic markers, you definitely need to. I have hands that are not steady sometimes, these markers make the little details easier than getting frustrated with a brush.

My next flower painting will take me awhile. Stay tuned…

Art shop open on Etsy: 4pawsartstudio

Happy day

Caroline