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Where am I? What am I drinking?

If you have been following this blog, you would know I have had some intense times living in my townhouse community.

I was ready to move 2 weeks ago, then it hit me, the financial issue of another 30 year loan as I am wanting to quit counseling in the near future. So I decided to stay at my house and update the bathroom and kitchen.

Those hostile neighbors need to just get over it.

Anyway, the tension, fatigue, uneaseness about life caused a huge amount of swelling from rheumatoid arthritis. But my eating habits have been anything less desired.

When I first found out I had a gluten intolerance and dairy and soy intolerance, my diet change over night. Seriously, over night.

I was told to drink bone broth daily. And eat anti-inflammatory foods.

You know where I’m going…

The stress of being on the HOA board and my job got to my mental health…I wasn’t eating healthy. I was just eating.

I went to the kitchen tonight and got bone broth out, warmed it and poured it in a cup. As I write this blog, I am sipping it. It’s really not that bad it’s kind of tasty.

Afterwards I’m going to have some watermelon, cantaloupe and honeydew with water. My acupuncturist who I haven’t seen in a several months, told me to eat foods that release water retention.

This evening I have been knitting the shawl which is really an oversized scarf.

Tomorrow my plan is to drink bone broth in the morning as I did in the past. It filled me up in the morning where I was not hungry. I will then bring green tea to work.

If I snack I’m going to be bringing one of my gluten-free snacks or dried fruits with me to work. And since I might not be able to get lunch tomorrow as my car will finally get work done I will have a salad with vegetables and fruit for late lunch/dinner.

I think being back on this diet with bone broth everyday will help decrease the swelling from the rheumatoid arthritis. It will help the swelling from edema and it most likely will help me not feel so tired. Lately the chronic fatigue has been the worst since I was diagnosed with gluten intolerance dairy intolerance and soy intolerance.

It has been proven by scientists and medical providers that stress causes autoimmune to flare. I have no doubt about the proof of that as I live with it daily. I am hoping getting back on track with my diet and lifestyle change will put me in a better mood and help me lose the water retention.

And then maybe I will feel ready to get back into making more art and doing yoga daily. I want to feel happy about my life.

Happy day

Caroline

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Sunday Painting

I have not been posting for awhile. Simply because I needed a break. Most of my free time has been cross stitching. My goal is to finish Derby by February.

Also my hours at work has increased slightly as new clients are calling. I have a goal to pay off some bills this early part of the year. I will need to consider buying a car later next year.

With that being said, I decided to not move. It saddens me but I need to focus on my long term goal. The long term goal is to not work as a counselor in my 60’s, and find other work to do. Or to work from home full time in 5 years. If I got another 30 year loan, then I would have no choice but work more hours and for a longer time.

Therefore, I am staying at my townhouse. And plan on finishing updating the bathroom and kitchen.

Since it is getting colder out the neighbors have stayed inside. I’m looking forward to the cold months ahead because there’s less chance my neighbors will harass me. (I am being harassed because I’m on the HOA board) trust me we made positive changes, gave owners more freedom. Someone people are just mean and hateful and don’t want others to have freedom and happiness.

Sunday, I finished a column on Derby early. I decided to close up the house early and found my way to a canvas. Afterwards I did yoga, read the Bible and read some paragraphs about chakras. Then I went to bed at 8:30! I have been exhausted and really need the sleep. I hope this extra sleep will decrease the inflammation from rheumatoid arthritis.

Here’s the beginning of the painting. I believe it will change drastically. It might not even look like this next time you see the update.

I have items on Etsy shop. Paintings and knit headbands and scarfs that’s great for the winter.

Below some examples of what’s in my Etsy shop.

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Happy Day

Caroline

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Intuitive Painting #6

I have been painting on a canvas for the past week. Each night instead of journalling in a notebook or in an art book, I took my journalling to a canvas.

Below is the previous journal entries in a 24″x 30″ canvas

Here’s the #6 intuitive Painting from yesterday.

I have been feeling more like myself. In the past few days decisions were made. I’m going to look into buying a home. I live in a townhouse, which I do love, but the neighbors and being on the board has caused toxic relationships to appear. I was happier here when I was not on the board. I had more free time and didn’t know what people were like here. Until now.

Yesterday, was house cleaning day. I started in my closet, took clothes to donation. And shredded papers and took that to recycle bin. In between of that, my art supplies got organized. I am happier to know that going inside a craft store is not needed any time soon. I certainly have own store!

During the evening it was relaxing, exercise and knitting. I fell asleep on the sofa. That felt great. I forgot to write and post this blog. So now it’s morning.

I will be seeing a few clients. And I will be resting maybe cross stitching. I’m glad to have my free time back.

I still want to quit being on the board, but not sure how soon I’ll find a house to buy. Until then I’m going to try to keep my peace.

Happy Day

Caroline

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Intuitive Painting #5

I’m on day 5 of intuitive Painting. I have been journalling my emotions into a canvas daily. I have been under a huge amount of stress from harassing neighbors and now increase of stress being on the HOA board.

Today I have been busy looking at homes. I am planning to sell my home and buy somewhere maybe closer to my sister.

Happy Day

Caroline

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Intuitive Painting #4

Today was quiet. I slept for most of the day. The exhaustion level is high. As I write this at 9:30 at night, I am ready to sleep again.

This morning my voice was assertive. I told the HOA manager that I am thinking about resigning because of the bullying and not feeling at peace. I am also considering moving. I told her that I don’t want to be bothered by association issues daily. It’s unreasonable.

Here’s the thing most people here about how bad the association is at a condo or townhouse. But have you ever heard about how the board members get harassed and bullied? Probably not. There is nothing we did to cause that other than following the rules.

I’m not sure what decision I will make. Not sure if I want to move. All I know is I want peace and quiet again. That may result in me resigning. Time will tell as they say.

Here’s my journal painting on canvas tonight…

Below is a close up of tonight’s painting.

Below is the series of nights I painted on the same canvas using intuitive painting.

I have things to sort out then I can get back to making my art stronger and focus on my Etsy store.

Happy Day

Caroline

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Intuition painting #3

Darkness of Anger is the title of tonight’s painting.

I am on edge. If you ever lived in a relationship of harrassment or abuse, then you will certainly understand.

Everyday there is something one of these people doing that infringes in my life. My home used to be an oasis. They destroyed it. I can’t walk my dog without constantly looking over my shoulder. They bang on doors. I will refuse to answer. They complain and want to take my personal time away. For some reason every complaint they make we must find a solution.

I used to have an evening of relaxation, watching tv, doing art, yoga. Now it’s filled with worries, constantly thinking and not feeling safe.

Has anyone lived in a community of HOA? I am on the HOA board and ever since they have been extremely rude, disrespectful and making issues as a crisis when it isn’t. I’m not sure if I want to be on this board anymore. I don’t think I can take living here anymore either.

I don’t see it ending until I quit, or I get really ill or they get bored.

So I’m fed up and ready to cry. Here’s tonight’s painting…

It’s nothing but anger depression and feeling defeated.

Recap of day 1:

Recap of day 2:

Where does this painting go next?

Not feeling a happy day but I wish everyone a

Happy Day

Caroline

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Night #2 of Intuitive Painting

My latest painting is about painting intuitively. But I am using this technique to help release my suppressed feelings as I go through harrassment and bullying from neighbors. I do not deserve to be bullied and have not deliberately done anything for neighbors to feel revengeful.

Last night I left the canvas looking like this, only painted the top of the canvas. I couldn’t paint the bottom, it was like my head could only see one part of the canvas. Look at the colors and the markings are forceful on the canvas.

Tonight this is where the painting ended:

So what’s the difference between the two days. Certainly, I painted on the entire canvas.

Yesterday was emotionally, physically and mentally exhausted. It was an unless day on top of an endless week. It’s difficult to live in a community where neighbors cause safety concerns because they don’t like someone or they feel they are entitled to what they want. I had much anger suppressed in my body throughout the last week. But really it’s been there longer. However the fear is causing more harm to me. This harrassment and bullying has been going on for the entire summer. Stop the bullying, stop the harrassment.

Today, it was a calm relaxing day. I was able to cross stitch, took a nap, cleaned my refrigerator and made a fresh batch of cold green tea for the week. I did yoga and meditation before I painted this evening, it was a 10 minute evening yoga.

Here’s some close up photos of tonight’s painting.

I’ll continue to post my intuitive painting. I will be focusing back into my art for the Etsy shop this week. I’m almost finished with another ear warmer.

Happy Day

Caroline

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Intuitive Painting

Today was a day of intense anger. I’m frustrated. It’s been an exhausting last few months. I feel like it will not end.

Here’s how I managed my emotions, with a 24″ x 30″ canvas, acrylic paints and my emotions.

I sat in front of the canvas and chose paint my emotion.

My emotion was anger, sad, feeling of being alone and the depression trauma and put someone in.

The plan is to paint on this canvas every night to release my emotions for about 15mins. And not be concerned about the end product. It’s like a journal entry but each time I go to this canvas I will paint over what was already painted. I will do this until a group of people stop the harrassment me and my friend and terrorizing me and my friend.

Stop the bullying, stop the abuse

Happy Day

Caroline

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Painting Rocks

This morning, I decided to paint rocks. This is something I like seeing other people do, but I never really had an interest until now. Why?

Well, long story but I needed to find something to get the negative energy out of my home and around my home. I have not felt safe because like some neighborhoods, there are people who are hateful.

I asked someone what can get rid of negative, she said the evil eye. Instead of buying something, I decided to paint these rocks I found.

Painted rock:

Need rocks, clean them, prime them and put a protective coat on it for outdoor ones, acrylic paint.

Outside looking in:

Evil eye: here’s what I found about it.

The evil eye brings bad luck to the person it is directed to for reasons of envy or dislike. It’s usually in blue and green colors for spiritual protection.

Happy Day

Caroline