Oh my! Was today a long tedious emotional day! These are the days I do not like as a counselor. The needs are growing, especially with a panic of uncertainty with covid. Stress and the unknown of what will come in our mid-west town. As a counselor I have understanding of their fears and worries about another year of covid concerns and worries of a lockdown. As me, a person, I just don’t know what to say anymore to anyone. I feel desensitized to Everything!
I finished the documentation for today’s sessions. Answered a few questions and closed my computer and said no more of work until Friday.
After feeding the pets, as I call the 4paws, I ate dinner and honestly it had no taste…not the no taste covid gives. But the no taste as I’m exhausted and burned out. Then I thought, oh no what would happen if we have another lockdown!? Last year I was beyond busy. I certainly cannot take another year of that. I don’t mind working from home, in fact that’s what I eventually want to do. But it’s the amount of needs and the exhaustion it caused me. By the way counselors are the unspoken heros during covid or any crisis…we hear and see it all, and we tend to be forgotten in how we are taking care of everyone during covid.
At this point I was done for the day, in my PJs and in the studio. I finished my paintings and they should be ready to be posted on Etsy soon.
I started two paintings, put the first layer. As I was painting it hit me my back started hurting and my hand wasn’t able to do what I wanted. That means my energy is low and my fingers are tired. I had to finish up for the night.
Before I closed up the studio, I prepared a few canvases to be painted.
Now I’m laying down with the weighted blanket and might do some knitting. But I’m thinking sleep might be better.
Stress from my job, rheumatoid arthritis flared and edema becomes too much for me…I accomplished enough for tonight.