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Intuitive Painting #6

I have been painting on a canvas for the past week. Each night instead of journalling in a notebook or in an art book, I took my journalling to a canvas.

Below is the previous journal entries in a 24″x 30″ canvas

Here’s the #6 intuitive Painting from yesterday.

I have been feeling more like myself. In the past few days decisions were made. I’m going to look into buying a home. I live in a townhouse, which I do love, but the neighbors and being on the board has caused toxic relationships to appear. I was happier here when I was not on the board. I had more free time and didn’t know what people were like here. Until now.

Yesterday, was house cleaning day. I started in my closet, took clothes to donation. And shredded papers and took that to recycle bin. In between of that, my art supplies got organized. I am happier to know that going inside a craft store is not needed any time soon. I certainly have own store!

During the evening it was relaxing, exercise and knitting. I fell asleep on the sofa. That felt great. I forgot to write and post this blog. So now it’s morning.

I will be seeing a few clients. And I will be resting maybe cross stitching. I’m glad to have my free time back.

I still want to quit being on the board, but not sure how soon I’ll find a house to buy. Until then I’m going to try to keep my peace.

Happy Day

Caroline

Etsy shop is open. Https://4pawsartstudio.etsy.com

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Intuitive Painting #4

Today was quiet. I slept for most of the day. The exhaustion level is high. As I write this at 9:30 at night, I am ready to sleep again.

This morning my voice was assertive. I told the HOA manager that I am thinking about resigning because of the bullying and not feeling at peace. I am also considering moving. I told her that I don’t want to be bothered by association issues daily. It’s unreasonable.

Here’s the thing most people here about how bad the association is at a condo or townhouse. But have you ever heard about how the board members get harassed and bullied? Probably not. There is nothing we did to cause that other than following the rules.

I’m not sure what decision I will make. Not sure if I want to move. All I know is I want peace and quiet again. That may result in me resigning. Time will tell as they say.

Here’s my journal painting on canvas tonight…

Below is a close up of tonight’s painting.

Below is the series of nights I painted on the same canvas using intuitive painting.

I have things to sort out then I can get back to making my art stronger and focus on my Etsy store.

Happy Day

Caroline

Etsy store: Https://4pawsartstudio.etsy.com

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The Creative Formula

It has been awhile since I posted about The Creative Cure, by Jacob Nordby. (it’s been a long few weeks, no time to read) I have included chapter 7 and chapter 8 in this post.

Chapter 7 he writes about the creative formula. It was enlightening to read and brought me to a place of “Wow, this is just what I need.”

Here is a review:

Imagination +feelings/intuition +story=action/results

pick something you want to do, Here is my creative formula: “what would I love to create?”

being an artist who sells art:

imagination: going into the art studio. I can smell the turpentine, paint and hear the brushes on the canvas.

Feelings/intuition: excitement, overjoyed, “in my element”

story: If I make more time to be in the studio, then I can creative more art and can be creative daily.

Actions/results: Finished canvases, more to paint and enjoying the outcome of how my life can change.

Why do we need a creative formula? Because it helps with our dreams. It helps with a plan to make dreams be part of our life (steps to make it happen. And it can help us when we are stuck. it can provide a way to see how we might be sabotaging our dreams.

He explains with this formula, the progress and reality of the dreams happening the action, the resources and people to help and strategies will appear. All because you kept focus on the creative process.

He includes a personal discovery assessment in the book. He writes that writing in a journal daily along with meditation and relaxation and the personal discovery assessment can increase clarity to bring your dreams into reality.

Chapter 8 is a review and recap of the book. It reminds us of what we read about what if…?, socialization, the creative formula and living the life that is nature to you.

I will be taking time to do the personal discovery assessment on my own.

This book was insightful and I can see myself going through it again, taking time to do the exercises and continuing to write daily in a journal.

If you ever find yourself unsure of your creativity and intuition, read this book.

Happy Day

Caroline

More art has been posted to Etsy:

Shop link:

https://4pawsartstudio.etsy.com

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A Day of Rest

Today is my day off of work. I’m in need of a little rest. Unfortunately, the late afternoon I will need to go to the store. Have to look for sheds and a tree to plant.

Morning, I take my time getting up. Feed the cats and dog. Take the dog for a little walk. Have my hot tea with Goji berries in it (helps immune system and fights inflammation). Sometimes a few knitting stitches might get done. Sometimes I’ll lay down again.

Then off to my studio where I have my yoga mat. Usually a 15 minute yoga practice for the morning is my choice. Just enough to wake my body up.

After a walk with my dog, I’ll make a smoothie.

This morning a fruit smoothie sounded delicious.

When I buy fresh fruits, raspberries, blueberries, blackberries and bananas, sometimes I’ll put them in the freezer to save before they spoil.

(bananas need to be cut in small slices, set on a cookie sheet and put in freezer for a few hours or overnight. Then transfer to a freezer bag.)

Fruit smoothie

  • 2/3 cup of frozen berries
  • 1 whole banana
  • 1 tablespoon flax seed
  • 1/2 cup or more pineapple juice

Put all in the blender. Pour in a glass. Enjoy.

Today is the start of me using a water bottle with times on it. It helps to remember to drink water throughout the day and ensures you get the amount you need.

I have Edema in my legs. The swelling and inflammation is causing it. The blood tests do not show it’s from other organs complicating anything. Unfortunately I hold onto water fluid especially in the summer. But it’s the entire year I have this. I wear compression socks in the fall and winter. But it’s too hot in the spring and summer to wear them. Part of the problem with Edema is water fluid is from actually not having enough water, so the body holds onto it. (Unless you have congested heart disease etc) please I’m not a doctor so follow what your doctor’s recommends.

Here’s my water bottle.

I spent some time in the studio this morning. All the 8″x8″ canvases has the first coat of paint on it.

It’s lunch time… I’m not very hungry. Lunch will consist of rice cakes-salt free, peanut butter, banana , and water

I ended up with a headache. Could be a sign of a storm coming.

I’m now on the sofa, going to take a nap. And do some knitting for the remainder of the day.

I took out frozen gluten free barbeque chicken I made a few weeks ago…that will be dinner with a salad.

Just never know when chronic illness and rheumatoid arthritis changes things on you.

Happy Day

Caroline

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That’s A Wrap, A Bubble Wra

A journal technique:

Supplies needed:

  • Journal
  • Acrylic paint
  • Brushes
  • Bubble Wrap
  • Water
  • Paper towels

Choose three colors of acrylic paint. Use a brush and paint onto the paper using a wash technique.

Then choose a paint color that will stand out. I chose black.

Take a paint brush and paint onto the bubble wrap.

Below close up of bubble wrap with paint on it.

Place the bubble wrap into the paper.

Push down with your fingers and rub it onto the paper. Press lightly.

Bubble wrap comes in small and large sizes.

Overlap the bubble wrap to make the design interesting and unique.

Happy Day

Caroline

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Painting Plan

It’s finally Sunday! I’ll be visiting my dad for the afternoon. Once I get home my plan is to paint for a few hours.

Canvases are prepared and ready to go.

I’ll post updates on these paintings.

In the meantime I will be knitting a oversized scarf, that I can use as a shawl. The stitch is huddle stitch. This will not be sold.

Hurdle stitch

Cast on even number of stitches

  • Row 1- knit
  • Row 2- knit
  • Row 3- k1, p1
  • Row 4-k1, p1
  • Repeat until size you want.

I’m excited, this week most of the days I will be working from home. I’m considering to transition to work at home permanently. Either I’ll ask the practice I work at for that position or I’ll work for a telehealth company. Time will tell what the decision will be. But I believe I’ll have more painting time and more time to write my book if I work from home.

Enjoy your day

Happy day

Caroline

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Chapter 4- more on intuition

The last part of chapter 4 of The Creative Cure, by Jacob Nordby, is more about intuition but he added exercises to connect with emotions.

He writes on page 67, “Cultivating your intuition is a lifelong process best approached with curiosity, imagination, and even playfulness.”

He writes more about traumatic experiences and how it can close off our joy. page 73, “healing from trauma is also healing the connection to your inner creative self, which often involves giving your feelings expression in the outer world.”

He explains unhealed trauma and the diagnosis that are connected to it, such as anxiety, depression, eating disorders, addiction etc.

exercise

page 77, he has a practice exercise about making big decisions.

write one sentence or a word that describes the issue: Do I leave my career and find something less stressful to do?

where do I feel this in my body: my head and chest

pretend I am looking at a picture and relax my eyes, allowing things to get fuzzy: think about What would bring me joy in this situation?

Daydream…then at the end say aloud :”Let it be so.”

next exercise

pg 81, Relax body for a few minutes and ask How am I feeling right now?

write one word that describes how you are feeling: Numb

where do you feel this emotion in your body? chest,

give the emotion a color or shape, temperature, texture- color: light gray, shape: blob, temperature luke warm, texture-smooth

write mental story about these emotions:

If you read my previous post, a person I know, died from a long battle with cancer. I couldn’t stop crying, I drove home crying, I sat on my sofa crying. I went to bed sad and my physical pain increased. I had a hard time talking to the family member, because I was hurt. I was hurt by the feelings he is going through, as I lived them when I was his age. Everything returned to me. To watch someone die of cancer, or any illness, it a trauma. But to be at the side of someone’s bed and watch them die and see them hemorrhage is a trauma that will never be forgotten. I am numbed by so many health issues of people around me. I tend to be alone when I hear “bad” news, I never have anyone to talk to me about it as it is happening, I have to wake up alone with it. And go on with my day as if I didn’t hear about anything traumatic. I am always alone dealing with emotional issues. I am tired and need to escape away from work and death and illness. It’s taking away my creativity.

Both images on this post is in my shop on etsy: 4pawsartstudio

Happy Day

Caroline

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Chapter 3 The Creative Cure

If you have been following my posts lately, I have been reading The Creative Cure by Jacob Nordby. It has been examining how a person can have a creative block caused by socialization, traumatic experiences and rejection.

Chapter 3 is about Restoring Imagination

He writes on page 38, “As we grow older, we tend to trade imagination for logic, and like any other skill we don’t use, we get out of practice using our imagination.” We must have the right answer, the right way of doing things etc. No imagination anymore when we are adults!

I love this statement on page 39. “Imagination is personal-each of us does it differently (though it can be done in groups with exciting results).”

in summary of this section of the book : Imagination is a muscle and we can practice it and strengthen it at any time.

Exercise from the book: Problem-solving with random words

Chose a problem:

my problem is: Not having enough fun and laughter in my life.

use online random word generator: grab the first word you find

My word is: Defend

write about the ways your problem might be like this word:

here’s my writing:

I have to constantly defend myself, my actions, my decisions. I felt all my life everyone watched me, watched what I was doing and had a sarcastic input about it. I have to defend my work, my counseling skills, my decisions at work. I have to defend my requests and comments. I have to defend my opinions. I have no one to help defend me. I am alone in this world fighting for my place, guarded ready to defend. I feel insecure to let go of my defense and become vulnerable while everyone is watching. I have to defend my decisions with my home, my decisions with my career and my decisions with my money and my physical health. I have to answer to everyone, but I am alone. This makes me irritated. I don’t know the solution to this. I feel happier when I am alone in my own space. I don’t want to defend myself about my decision to create art and focus on my self-care. I don’t need to defend myself to others, no one owns me. I can decide what I want and allowed to make my own mistakes. I am allowed to live and take chances with my life. I am allowed to spend my money on a vacation or my home if I want. So be it, people just have to accept that I am alive and that they don’t need to control me. They need to accept that I want things that are different than they want for me. So be it. I need to not focus on defending myself but just taking chances and not feel anxious about making a mistake and people watching me.

exercise: Daydreaming Meditation: daydream about having fun with someone

That was difficult because I had to meditate for 10 minuets. I daydreamed about having fun with my childhood friend, Kim. I miss her and wish we stayed connected.

exercise: artists dates:

Make a plan to do art stuff—I kinda do that. maybe I need to actually label it in my calendar

exercise: shoulds and should’ts: the tools of socialization

I need to start listening to when I say or hear or think “I should, or I should not.”

exercise: what if you are perfect now?

he suggests to write these down, and essentially think about them and write about it later.

What if I am perfect just as I am right now?

What if I am enough?

What if everything is just as it should be right this moment?

What if I am doing the best I can?

This was a chapter with an overwhelming amount of exercises. I definitely want to do the meditation again. I want to be able to remember the fun and creativity we had together.

I have some thinking and processing to do with this chapter.

Happy Day

Caroline