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Intuitive Painting

Evening Routine

This evening I found myself painting. It was not planned. Earlier in the day, I was consumed with watercoloring, cross stitching and knitting.

I wanted to do yoga tonight. The past few weeks my house was being updated in the kitchen and bathroom. Last week I finished the minor parts, painting my closet door and doing touch ups and painting my bathroom.

I not only stopped yoga and my artwork for awhile, I also had a set back in my diet.

I have to eat gluten free and dairy free and soy free. I have an autoimmune disorder, rheumatoid arthritis. I made a dish with cheese in it. Evidently I can not go back to eating dairy.

My stomach is bloated, gassy and felt nauseous. All side effects of dairy intolerance. I have not tried to eat anything with gluten in it. At this point I will not be trying any.

Yoga to the rescue. I did a yin yoga to hold the poses longer. Afterwards, I had this desire to sit at my art table again. I began

painting…

Acrylic Painting/ Intuitive Painting

Earlier in the day I painted these fruits in watercolor.

My Art Expression

If you follow my art, I tend to put a little abstract flare to it with some retro vibe. You can follow me on Instagram and on my Etsy shop.

I’m now laying down and need to go to sleep. I have a client early tomorrow and need to get up early.

Happy Day

Caroline

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Intuitive Painting #5

I’m on day 5 of intuitive Painting. I have been journalling my emotions into a canvas daily. I have been under a huge amount of stress from harassing neighbors and now increase of stress being on the HOA board.

Today I have been busy looking at homes. I am planning to sell my home and buy somewhere maybe closer to my sister.

Happy Day

Caroline

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Night #2 of Intuitive Painting

My latest painting is about painting intuitively. But I am using this technique to help release my suppressed feelings as I go through harrassment and bullying from neighbors. I do not deserve to be bullied and have not deliberately done anything for neighbors to feel revengeful.

Last night I left the canvas looking like this, only painted the top of the canvas. I couldn’t paint the bottom, it was like my head could only see one part of the canvas. Look at the colors and the markings are forceful on the canvas.

Tonight this is where the painting ended:

So what’s the difference between the two days. Certainly, I painted on the entire canvas.

Yesterday was emotionally, physically and mentally exhausted. It was an unless day on top of an endless week. It’s difficult to live in a community where neighbors cause safety concerns because they don’t like someone or they feel they are entitled to what they want. I had much anger suppressed in my body throughout the last week. But really it’s been there longer. However the fear is causing more harm to me. This harrassment and bullying has been going on for the entire summer. Stop the bullying, stop the harrassment.

Today, it was a calm relaxing day. I was able to cross stitch, took a nap, cleaned my refrigerator and made a fresh batch of cold green tea for the week. I did yoga and meditation before I painted this evening, it was a 10 minute evening yoga.

Here’s some close up photos of tonight’s painting.

I’ll continue to post my intuitive painting. I will be focusing back into my art for the Etsy shop this week. I’m almost finished with another ear warmer.

Happy Day

Caroline

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Chapter 4- more on intuition

The last part of chapter 4 of The Creative Cure, by Jacob Nordby, is more about intuition but he added exercises to connect with emotions.

He writes on page 67, “Cultivating your intuition is a lifelong process best approached with curiosity, imagination, and even playfulness.”

He writes more about traumatic experiences and how it can close off our joy. page 73, “healing from trauma is also healing the connection to your inner creative self, which often involves giving your feelings expression in the outer world.”

He explains unhealed trauma and the diagnosis that are connected to it, such as anxiety, depression, eating disorders, addiction etc.

exercise

page 77, he has a practice exercise about making big decisions.

write one sentence or a word that describes the issue: Do I leave my career and find something less stressful to do?

where do I feel this in my body: my head and chest

pretend I am looking at a picture and relax my eyes, allowing things to get fuzzy: think about What would bring me joy in this situation?

Daydream…then at the end say aloud :”Let it be so.”

next exercise

pg 81, Relax body for a few minutes and ask How am I feeling right now?

write one word that describes how you are feeling: Numb

where do you feel this emotion in your body? chest,

give the emotion a color or shape, temperature, texture- color: light gray, shape: blob, temperature luke warm, texture-smooth

write mental story about these emotions:

If you read my previous post, a person I know, died from a long battle with cancer. I couldn’t stop crying, I drove home crying, I sat on my sofa crying. I went to bed sad and my physical pain increased. I had a hard time talking to the family member, because I was hurt. I was hurt by the feelings he is going through, as I lived them when I was his age. Everything returned to me. To watch someone die of cancer, or any illness, it a trauma. But to be at the side of someone’s bed and watch them die and see them hemorrhage is a trauma that will never be forgotten. I am numbed by so many health issues of people around me. I tend to be alone when I hear “bad” news, I never have anyone to talk to me about it as it is happening, I have to wake up alone with it. And go on with my day as if I didn’t hear about anything traumatic. I am always alone dealing with emotional issues. I am tired and need to escape away from work and death and illness. It’s taking away my creativity.

Both images on this post is in my shop on etsy: 4pawsartstudio

Happy Day

Caroline