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Intuition painting #3

Darkness of Anger is the title of tonight’s painting.

I am on edge. If you ever lived in a relationship of harrassment or abuse, then you will certainly understand.

Everyday there is something one of these people doing that infringes in my life. My home used to be an oasis. They destroyed it. I can’t walk my dog without constantly looking over my shoulder. They bang on doors. I will refuse to answer. They complain and want to take my personal time away. For some reason every complaint they make we must find a solution.

I used to have an evening of relaxation, watching tv, doing art, yoga. Now it’s filled with worries, constantly thinking and not feeling safe.

Has anyone lived in a community of HOA? I am on the HOA board and ever since they have been extremely rude, disrespectful and making issues as a crisis when it isn’t. I’m not sure if I want to be on this board anymore. I don’t think I can take living here anymore either.

I don’t see it ending until I quit, or I get really ill or they get bored.

So I’m fed up and ready to cry. Here’s tonight’s painting…

It’s nothing but anger depression and feeling defeated.

Recap of day 1:

Recap of day 2:

Where does this painting go next?

Not feeling a happy day but I wish everyone a

Happy Day

Caroline

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Night #2 of Intuitive Painting

My latest painting is about painting intuitively. But I am using this technique to help release my suppressed feelings as I go through harrassment and bullying from neighbors. I do not deserve to be bullied and have not deliberately done anything for neighbors to feel revengeful.

Last night I left the canvas looking like this, only painted the top of the canvas. I couldn’t paint the bottom, it was like my head could only see one part of the canvas. Look at the colors and the markings are forceful on the canvas.

Tonight this is where the painting ended:

So what’s the difference between the two days. Certainly, I painted on the entire canvas.

Yesterday was emotionally, physically and mentally exhausted. It was an unless day on top of an endless week. It’s difficult to live in a community where neighbors cause safety concerns because they don’t like someone or they feel they are entitled to what they want. I had much anger suppressed in my body throughout the last week. But really it’s been there longer. However the fear is causing more harm to me. This harrassment and bullying has been going on for the entire summer. Stop the bullying, stop the harrassment.

Today, it was a calm relaxing day. I was able to cross stitch, took a nap, cleaned my refrigerator and made a fresh batch of cold green tea for the week. I did yoga and meditation before I painted this evening, it was a 10 minute evening yoga.

Here’s some close up photos of tonight’s painting.

I’ll continue to post my intuitive painting. I will be focusing back into my art for the Etsy shop this week. I’m almost finished with another ear warmer.

Happy Day

Caroline

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Chapter 6 Revitalizing Action

The last part of chapter 5 of The Creative Cure, by Jacob Nordby, had many writing exercises. I decided to return to those exercises later, as currently my mind has not been into the writing mode.

Chapter 6

Chapter 6 is about revitalizing Action, page, 116 “I never feel more alive when I am in the midst of making something from nothing.” That was certainly true for me this past weekend. I spent the entire day in the studio painting and being creative.

Here are the key statements the author wrote that caught my attention.

“Creative practices also reduce anxiety, provide a sense of accomplishment, and connect us to others and the environment around us.” pg 119-120

“…the magic of practice lies in two ingredients: mindset and commitment,” pg 122

pg 123 “We compare ourselves to others and then reject our own work, not realizing we are rejecting ourselves and our pursuit of joy in the process.”

pg 126 the author stated that we may have a regular schedule for our craft but stated “..but we want to broaden the scope and meaning to include anything that helps us restore our connection to inner joy.”

Joyful Practice: it can decrease anxiety, stress, sadness, depression etc.

there is a list in this chapter and what makes you have strong emotional response he suggests to pay attention to that.

so here is what gave me a strong emotional response:

  • rescuing or raising animals
  • gardening/farming
  • photography
  • flower arranging
  • playing an instrument
  • sewing and textile art
  • fashion design
  • jewelry making
  • knitting/crocheting
  • hand-spinning yarn
  • making your own anything
  • growing a small business

This list will be used for the first exercise at the end of this chapter.

I am not surprised at the list that gave the a strong emotional connection. I’m curious about this exercise later in the book. Aren’t you?

I’ll post more later

Happy Day

Caroline

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Chapter 5-Poetry for healing

The exercise is about feeling through words. This writing’s focus is on finding feeling words and let go of all rules that apply to writing poems.

He suggested to find a imagine that gives a feeling. I chose a photo of me and my mom.

Write a list of words that describe the emotion, scene, colors and any details. Think if the 5 senses.

Happy, safe, pink, joy, giggle, love, soft, warm, calm, passion, excitement, kind, accepted, clean, sweet, gentle, cuddle, affection, sparkle

What are my thoughts

I never wrote a poem this way. I liked it. It gave me a nostalgic feeling, a longing to return to that time, it brought tears in me, that I’ll never have that touch again. The tears are about the loss, grief of my mom’s passing, but it’s also a longing of wanting to have affection again.

Page 97. “…The real practice is to nourish a sense of safety and begin to send signals to your subconscious that you are good enough and worthy of being heard and seen and accepted.”

Happy day

Caroline

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Blobs of Paint-an art journal entry

This morning I started a new journal entry, using the same process of blobs of paint on the paper. But an added step to it at the end..

Directions:

  • Acrylic paint
  • White acrylic paint
  • Flat brush
  • Journal
  • Palette
  • Water
  • Paper towels
  • Clean damp rag

Chose 4 colors of acrylic paint. Any color that appeals to you.

Use a flat brush and paint blobs of colors onto the paper. Fill it until the white paper is covered.

After it is dried, chose 2 more colors. And paint on top of the colors on the paper. Let it dry completely.

Put white acrylic paint onto a clean damp rag.

Wipe it onto the blob painting.

The final look, the painting has a soft muted look to it.

Another great way to paint a background for your journal entries.

Happy Day
Caroline

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And then there’s a creative art journal

My flower journey is still going on. While painting flowers this month, I’m also started back to creating art journal pages.

Along with reading “the creative cure” it made sense to me to work in my journal.

This is a great way to start when you are unsure what to paint. It’s also a good way to loosen up if feeling tense and restricted about painting. And it’s a great way to paint a background.

Here’s the directions:

The brush of colors

  • Acrylic paint
  • Flat brush
  • Journal
  • Palette
  • Water
  • Paper towels

Chose 4 colors. Any color that appeals to you.

Use a flat brush and paint blobs of colors onto the paper. Fill it until the white paper is covered.

After it is dried. Choose 2 more colors. And paint on top of the colors on the paper.

That’s the first part….more to come about this painting.

Where’s my flowers? I’m working on some paintings for Etsy…will be showing them on blog soon, and posting on Etsy hopefully at the end of July.

Happy day

Caroline

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Tears of Watercolors

I’m trying to get myself back to making watercolor pictures.

Watercolors are relaxing and soothing for me.

I found out someone I know is not doing well. She has been fighting cancer for several years. That day was difficult to hear the worst news. I took myself to the art studio and grabbed my watercolors.

I thought about life, spirituality, death and what heaven is like.

This is what came out of my emotions and thoughts.

‘Ann’ June 2021, try to keep fighting.

I pray that she will not be in pain anymore and that her angels will guide her to her next journey. And I pray her son will find himself closer to his spiritual belief and let God guide him.

It really is true, you don’t know what you have until you are looking directly at the end.

Be kind
Caroline